BLACKRABBITSAN 28

28: something that you miss

Somethig that I miss by far is not always being in my old friends lives, I feel myself being distanced from them and it upsets me at a huge number of levels. I see them again and it's so strange they talk about things I have no idea what they are or people I don't know. Some of the worst parts are just the silence and then the .....yeah. I mean sometimes we bearly talk we talk for five minutes and then go online. Or the being invited to parties I just sit there while everyone talks because I don't know who these people are, or when I call and they can't talk because they're hwnging with another friend again. I'm constant terror, that I might be replaced by someone else is exhausting and scary, and I hate that feeling. I start to cry thinking about it. ACTULLY RIGHT NOW IM TEARING UP THINKING BOUT IT!!!! That's what I miss.